今天搞定了所有签字，交了 thesis proposal 的申请表，现在计划的 proposal date 是5月21号，咳咳，我现在还没开始写proposal哪。标题才刚决定没几天，写了个abstract。虽然写个10几页就行了，可是还是紧张啊。我大概还有两到三周的时间，咳咳，希望不要太懒。晾一下现在定的标题好了：Search for Exotic Superfluid States through Ultracold Fermions -_-。当然最要命的问题是其中要搞的一个理论方向我现在还是不懂啊，啊啊啊。Anyway，反正也就这样了。
这两天在听我最热爱的乐队 Of Montreal 的新EP，有首9分多钟的长歌，挺不错。和其他多数歌词长的歌不一样，它的曲调并不是简单重复，也是在大跳跃的，像是两三首呼应的小歌并在一起似的。其实 Of Montreal 的很多专辑都可以从头到尾连在一起当首大歌听的。反正，我觉得这歌不错。
Tonight I feel like I should just destroy myself
Tonight I feel like I should just explode myself
Tonight I feel like I should just destroy myself
Tonight I feel like I should just explode myselfThere’s someone calling my name
But there’s nothing to respond
I lost so much in our collapse
Man, my little hope is goneThe voice said don’t worry friend
The darkness is just a suggestion
Oh don’t worry kid
This darkeness is just a suggestion
Oh don’t worry KevinI’m allergic to the world when we’re separated
There’s nothing in my heart that’s worth the beating
Feeling like a styrofoam prop
Ennui is eating
I’m sure we talk and talk
But nothing worth repeating
I feel defeatedNow I’m O.D.ing on your cocksucker blues
You make me uptight
When you just don’t work right
You painted my prison now something’s wrong
And I never ever wanted to write this songI’m killing myself but it’s not suicide
I’m killing myself
I’m killing myself but it’s not suicide
I’m killing myself
And my friends will never know
Because I’ve never been
Because I’ve never been honest with anyoneAlways pulling faces from the unreposessing places of the universal mind
I’m crippled by the world when we’re divided
There’s nothing in my heart that’s worth the clicking
Feeling like a Pamplona bull that’s finished kickingAlthough we try to break the loop
It’s always stuck repeating
I feel defeatedNow I’m O.D.ing on your cocksucker blues
You make me uptight
When you just don’t work right
You painted my prison now something’s wrongAnd I never ever wanted to write this song
I always thought things would change somehow
And we would start getting along
But it’s hopelessAnd i never ever wanted to write this song
I always thought things would change somehow
And we would start getting along
But it’s hopeless
no more movie. you’ll be fine
Hey, May 21st is my Graduation Day! Good luck with your proposal date! I’m sure everything will be fine although you have “no conclusion” and “no proposal” yet…
…I listened to the song and honestly, I don’t feel pleased by it. Maybe it is just their music is not my style.
[quote comment=”3635″]no more movie. you’ll be fine[/quote]
er…when i don’t watch movie anymore, i must be in big trouble…
[quote comment=”3636″]Hey, May 21st is my Graduation Day! Good luck with your proposal date! I’m sure everything will be fine although you have “no conclusion” and “no proposal” yet…
…I listened to the song and honestly, I don’t feel pleased by it. Maybe it is just their music is not my style.[/quote]
Ha, what a coincidence.
For the song, it’s quite usual you don’t like it. I’ve been told many times some of the songs I put here are not pleasing….er….you can try another song of theirs which I put on the blog a while ago (suffer for fashion), but you probably won’t like it either…maybe try this one (update: linked file removed), this song is how I started to like them a little more than two years ago.
what kind of music do you like? I in general prefer singers or bands that are “playing” with music to say something not stupid but also not too serious.
反正我是很久不看电影了……大概两周
昨晚终于看了一部，sigh
Without watching movie, of course you can find something else to do. How about writing to me everyday?
Just joking, I also watch movies so often in this moment, perhaps because I am exhausted these days.
这个是不是就是prelim？然后再有一年就可以毕业了？
[quote comment=”3638″]反正我是很久不看电影了……大概两周
昨晚终于看了一部，sigh[/quote]
你是sigh很久没看电影还是sigh昨晚的电影不好看。。。
[quote comment=”3640″]Without watching movie, of course you can find something else to do. How about writing to me everyday?
Just joking, I also watch movies so often in this moment, perhaps because I am exhausted these days.[/quote]
I do write to you almost every day. at least, I reply. hoho
[quote comment=”3641″]这个是不是就是prelim？然后再有一年就可以毕业了？[/quote]
不是。。。一般这个proposal是在五年中的第三年进行，通过后就成了phd candidate，开始所谓的正式论文研究。不过这是一个和老板讨论毕业计划的好机会。我目前似乎是target四年半毕业。。。
那已经很快很快了。不过快毕业也未必是什么好事，如果将来没做好打算的话。我曾经幻想过当一辈子ta，拿微薄的薪水干轻松的工作。
哈，加油啊，一下子就过去了。
看着你的标题好高深的样子啊。
[quote comment=”3643″]那已经很快很快了。不过快毕业也未必是什么好事，如果将来没做好打算的话。我曾经幻想过当一辈子ta，拿微薄的薪水干轻松的工作。[/quote]
虽然还没做好打算，但至少我确定不想学术了。。。一辈子ta，那就回北大当讲师好了，hoho
[quote comment=”3644″]哈，加油啊，一下子就过去了。
看着你的标题好高深的样子啊。[/quote]
希望啊！
标题都是糊弄人的，咳咳。
不管怎样，加油加油吧~~~
北大当讲师也不容易吧，
要混个学术十杰之类的称号才行似乎
北大讲师的日子好像还不如这边ta来的爽，压力挺大的。而且就像贝贝说的，回北大实在是太难太难了，我现在已经基本把自己定位在国内民办高校教师这个水平上。不搞学术的意思是不是找工作面试，然后参加h1b大抽奖？
[quote comment=”3646″]不管怎样，加油加油吧~~~[/quote]
嗯，美丽小女人也要加油哈
[quote comment=”3647″]北大当讲师也不容易吧，
要混个学术十杰之类的称号才行似乎[/quote]
嗯，我还记得数理助教的大肚子。。。
[quote comment=”3648″]北大讲师的日子好像还不如这边ta来的爽，压力挺大的。而且就像贝贝说的，回北大实在是太难太难了，我现在已经基本把自己定位在国内民办高校教师这个水平上。不搞学术的意思是不是找工作面试，然后参加h1b大抽奖？[/quote]
回北大是很难，不过如果有认识老师在会好一点吧，可以回去投奔欧阳同学哈。
今年的h1b是比较变态，不过至少adv的还没咻的一下搞定。
Hey, you know what? This time, I loved the two songs you posted! The first one “Suffer or Fashion” is very danceable…I, especially, like “it’s not suppose to happen like that, not like that…”. And for the “Let’s pretend we don’t exist”, come on! This is Electro-pop, sooth and relaxing and I feel I could float w/ it. My conclusion is that their songs are very lyrical with “stream of consciousness writing” style. If we don’t expect anything while listening, we may come across something super nice.
Exactly! The endless repeat of “let’s pretend we don’t exist” just made me very “soft”. Then I totally fell in love with this band, hoho. And also “it’s not supposed to happen like that”, I sang along with them loudly many many times on my way to and back from school. They actually came to dartmouth once and i went to watch their live show. I was soooo happy that night, hoho.
Expectation is heavy. But sadly we need all sorts of expectation to keep living somehow @_@
“Expectation is heavy. But sadly we need all sorts of expectation to keep living somehow @_@” did you just make that up to sound deep? haha, Exactly exactly…I’m glad that we had little “gongming” going on. Nice…
[quote comment=”3666″]”Expectation is heavy. But sadly we need all sorts of expectation to keep living somehow @_@” did you just make that up to sound deep? haha, Exactly exactly…I’m glad that we had little “gongming” going on. Nice…[/quote]
haha, you are sharp. of course I was just playing deep @_@