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Sparklehorse – Apple Bed

// May 8th, 2007 // No Comments » // Music & Show

让我们来听首慢歌，适合戴着耳机听着发呆。歌词的话，我也搞不太懂到底要说啥。我觉得sparklehorse的歌挺适合戴着耳机写东西的时候听。

Sparklehorse – Apple Bed

Apple Bed

of horses wet
with melted ice
they would not heed
my advice
and burdened limbs
of its weight
to break and rot
a whispered fate

please
doctor, please

a remedy
in a bloody sea
to breach the hive
and smoke the bees
you can be my friend
you can be my dog
you can be my light
you can be my fog

please
doctor, please

the witches will return to their sticky tree knots
i will feel the sun
i will feel the sun
i will feel the sun coming down

i wish i had
a horse’s head
a tiger’s heart
an apple bed

No Conclusion

// April 12th, 2007 // 18 Comments » // Academic, Life, Music & Show

今天搞定了所有签字，交了 thesis proposal 的申请表，现在计划的 proposal date 是5月21号，咳咳，我现在还没开始写proposal哪。标题才刚决定没几天，写了个abstract。虽然写个10几页就行了，可是还是紧张啊。我大概还有两到三周的时间，咳咳，希望不要太懒。晾一下现在定的标题好了：Search for Exotic Superfluid States through Ultracold Fermions -_-。当然最要命的问题是其中要搞的一个理论方向我现在还是不懂啊，啊啊啊。Anyway，反正也就这样了。

这两天在听我最热爱的乐队 Of Montreal 的新EP，有首9分多钟的长歌，挺不错。和其他多数歌词长的歌不一样，它的曲调并不是简单重复，也是在大跳跃的，像是两三首呼应的小歌并在一起似的。其实 Of Montreal 的很多专辑都可以从头到尾连在一起当首大歌听的。反正，我觉得这歌不错。

Of Montreal – No Conclusion

Tonight I feel like I should just destroy myself
Tonight I feel like I should just explode myself
Tonight I feel like I should just destroy myself
Tonight I feel like I should just explode myself

There’s someone calling my name
But there’s nothing to respond
I lost so much in our collapse
Man, my little hope is gone

The voice said don’t worry friend
The darkness is just a suggestion
Oh don’t worry kid
This darkeness is just a suggestion
Oh don’t worry Kevin

I’m allergic to the world when we’re separated
There’s nothing in my heart that’s worth the beating
Feeling like a styrofoam prop
Ennui is eating
I’m sure we talk and talk
But nothing worth repeating
I feel defeated

Now I’m O.D.ing on your cocksucker blues
You make me uptight
When you just don’t work right
You painted my prison now something’s wrong
And I never ever wanted to write this song

I’m killing myself but it’s not suicide
I’m killing myself
I’m killing myself but it’s not suicide
I’m killing myself
And my friends will never know
Because I’ve never been
Because I’ve never been honest with anyone

Always pulling faces from the unreposessing places of the universal mind
I’m crippled by the world when we’re divided
There’s nothing in my heart that’s worth the clicking
Feeling like a Pamplona bull that’s finished kicking

Although we try to break the loop
It’s always stuck repeating
I feel defeated

Now I’m O.D.ing on your cocksucker blues
You make me uptight
When you just don’t work right
You painted my prison now something’s wrong

And I never ever wanted to write this song
I always thought things would change somehow
And we would start getting along
But it’s hopeless

And i never ever wanted to write this song
I always thought things would change somehow
And we would start getting along
But it’s hopeless

Everything is average nowadays

// March 28th, 2007 // 13 Comments » // Life, Music & Show

春季学期开始了，一个可怕的学期。有老板的课要上（不敢不上啊），有助教要当（还好是半学分的助教），有门计算方法的课想旁听（我想选可是老板不建议选啊），而且，还有 thesis proposal 要完成要小答辩（到现在我都还不清楚我论文到底做啥），当然还有实验室的活儿要干（老板回来后的实验室生活真tmd紧凑）。这事情一多，dartmouth一年四个学期的弊端就出来了，这每个学期也就两个月多一点点点，一般来说选个两三门课就很忙了，说是还有一个学期来完成proposal，实际上也就不到两个月了，5月底前啥都得干完。要死了。虽然我很想赶快搞完一切，能早毕业最好，现在看是希望不大了，咳咳，要命啊，痛苦啊，啊，啊，啊。不过整体来说这学期我们实验室的人都会很忙，俩师兄要夏天毕业，现在要写论文和面试，老板要除了平常事务这学期还要带两门课，何况俩学生毕业也够他忙的，所以上学期末我问他选课多了会不会忙不过来时，他回我 “next term is going to be very hectic for all of us, so you may want to join the boat!” 不过有一点好的是，虽然我仍然担心夏天后变成老板唯一一个学生之后的可怜日子，但没那么怕了，好像。另外因为师兄在找工作做，给我们看了一个学校提供的典型package，才知道原来当教授除了工资还不错，福利更是很好，最赚的是以后子女上大学的学费学校是给出的，在本校上全免，外校上学校给出一半或三分之二，这可是一大笔钱啊。像dartmouth现在一年单学费要4万美刀，一个孩子读完大学光学费就20多万美刀，如果再多几个孩子的话。。。看来当教授熬过前几年能拿到tenure的话确实挺爽的说。不过，我毕业后大概还是会坚决离开学术界的，yoyo。

转换话题。Kaiser Chiefs 是我挺热爱的英国摇滚小乐队，最近刚出了新专辑 Yours Truly, Angry Mob。虽然还有几首歌不错，但我觉得坚决没有第一张 Employment 好听。咳咳，反正他们自己也都唱了，everything is average nowadays.

Kaiser Chiefs – Everything is average nowadays

Everything is average nowadays

Sooooooooooooooooooooooo
Everything is average nowadays
Everything is average nowadays
Everyone would do it if they can
And everything is going down the pan
And everyone is following the craze
And everything is average

Now you say it’s getting better
But I don’t really see the signs
Said it is too different
You thought it would be suicide

Not much to believe in
Left up on a shelf
So get your coats we’re leaving
We’ll just do something else

Ohhhh Everything is average nowadays
Everything is average nowadays
And everything is of no consequence
Cos everyone is sitting on the fence
And everything will always stay the same
Cos everything is average

Now you said you didn’t mean it
You threw away the book of rules
You thought that we should read it
I wouldn’t even know how to

Not much to believe in
Left up on the shelf
So get your coats we’re leaving
We’ll just do something else

All I need is a ball and a wall
Or a sledge and a hill in heavy weather
All I need is a ball and a wall
A sledge and a hill in heavy weather

Oh oh oh oh etc.

The Road Not Taken

// March 21st, 2007 // 13 Comments » // Life, Music & Show

袁泉-较少人走的路

较少人走的路

树林中有两条路
而我选了那条较少人走的路
这就造成了所有人的差异

开车到学校的路上，听着姐姐传来的袁泉的新专辑。大大眼睛修长美腿的袁泉确实很美，可惜她的戏没看过多少，只在北大时看过她有出演的话剧《狂飚》，挺喜欢那部话剧。对她的歌声，相比来说还是更喜欢她的独白，她说话时的声音更好听，当年听小美的专辑就对袁泉在里面念的”我的心是一片海洋，可以温柔，却有力量“印象深刻。这次听她的歌，有一首很短的独白，她在念一首诗，听她在念”而我选了那条较少人走的路“，突然反应过来，前段时间刚在我参加的 conversation group 里讨论过原版的那首英文诗。

The Road Not Taken
By Robert Frost (1874-1963)

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that, the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I marked the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I,
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

老师说这首诗在美国很著名，尤其最后一句，常被人用在毕业典礼之类的场合。多数人都喜欢简单的把它就解读为不走寻常路，但我们当时讨论就注意到，其实不见得如此。大概第一感觉他是选择了似乎更少人走的路，但是“Though as for that, the passing there / Had worn them really about the same / And both that morning equally lay / In leaves no step had trodden black.”其实两条路并没有本质差别，并没有哪条真的是较少人走的路。我当时讨论时说，也许诗人的意思是，面对选择时，也许很多人都会选择不那么烂俗似乎做的人少的那一个，但做下来才发现，其实所谓的“特殊”并不是那么回事，一样有很多人做，一样很普通。似乎不少人也同意这种解读，很多时候面对岔路口，我们的选择其实在一定程度上是随机的，但是日后回忆起来，虽然难免还是会”with a sigh“，但是为了不让自己老是念着那条”road not taken“，再讲述时只会说，我选择这条路是因为较少人走，所以我有开创性啊，这一切就造成了差异。多少有点自欺欺人。不过诗就是这种东西，所谓的好诗常常需要能有不同的解读，也许也不见得有什么对错。

回到袁泉，不知道她念这三句断来的诗时，想的是哪种解读？

黄磊 – 云烟

// March 19th, 2007 // 25 Comments » // Music & Show

等等等等前几天偶然的又听到黄磊的这首《云烟》，想起了一些故事。喜欢黄磊，不是那首传唱率高到反胃的我想我是海，而是几年后已经是短发的他的那张“文学音乐大碟”《等等等等》，那时他刚演了人间四月天和橘子红了，气质很符合专辑打的文学旗号。虽然我个人觉得专辑里的歌并不是都和对应的文学作品很合，但还是挺喜欢那张专辑。《云烟》并不算是专辑里我最喜欢的，但是那一句“切莫走近”很符合我当时一段故事后的心境，于是记忆深刻，那时用的文曲星屏幕上自定义的几个字就是“切莫走近”。喜欢黄磊还有一个原因，就是难得遇到一个男歌手声线和我很接近，很适合我拿来k歌，我一直把那首《等等等等》当作我的压箱主打歌的-_-。当然再其后有人送了这张专辑给我当礼物，又多了另一重回忆。这张专辑后，黄磊还顺着他编导演的电视剧《似水年华》出了一张风格也有点文学的专辑《年华似水》，也不错。记得电视剧上演的那会儿，同宿舍的爪同学非常认真的看完全剧，还向我大力推荐，充分显示出东北男人的细嫩一面，哈。说远了，你看，这么一首歌引发这么些回忆，总该是要放上来的吧，呵呵。另外说句题外话，这周末买的草莓非常好吃@.@。

黄磊 – 云烟

云烟

切莫走近
让它是云烟
到我的梦里来
到你的梦里去
我爱过的人
爱过我的人
让他永远是云烟
永远是少年
永远永远是梦幻

切莫走近
让它永远是云烟